July 8, 2023
6:14 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page, back to my show tonight . . . Cenacle finishing work still going on . . . work has been better but not without too much effort . . . black pen calls louder . . .
July 15, 2023
7:00 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 122 still in the promotion stage, slowww . . . put in an official harassment complaint at work . . . had to, the boss & her boss trying to gaslight me into thinking I"m worthless . . . I'm not . . . time to push back, by the proper mechanisms . . .
July 22, 2023
12:58 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page, better timing . . . Cenacle 122 done promoting, into printing . . . long fucking week, no word yet, but I am slowly assembling where-next . . . while still waiting departure . . . strange netherworld for the moment . . .
July 29, 2023
5:33 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 122 done even printing . . . but still more work to get it out the door into the mail box . . . payjob was a struggle because I felt very alone & unsupported . . . end of week, someone in some power stepped up . . . will she help? I hope so . . . but still just don't know . . . not yet . . .
August 19, 2023
10:40 a.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Well, OK, so they laid me off on August 1, & it was an ugly call . . . I was told lies about myself, my actions, my abilities, my effect on other people . . . it was so ugly & outrageous as to be cartoonish . . . yet here I am, near three years there, done, jobless . . . the bastards won this round, as they have won many before, because they can, because they do . . . . . .
But, like Sir Elton John sang, "I'm still standing . . ." . . . I've been hardcore jobhunting for the past two weeks . . . nibbles have come along, as they do . . . none to give my heart to yet, but signs of movement . . . the first stage of all this is saturation, sending out resumes by the bunch day after day after day, not stopping, especially when the nibbles get more interesting . . . then there are the phone screenings, I think two of those so far, another this coming Monday . . . again, nothing to pause over, just shake best ass for the space of a phone call, then keep saturating . . . then the actual interviews come &, again, keep moving, keep saturating . . . sometimes saturating, screenings, & interviews will all be happening the same week, sometimes the same day, sometimes one hour & then the next, but keep moving, till the tumblers click into place . . . my goal here is no longer a long-term commitment so much as money enough to retire in a few years, & leave the well-named rat race behind . . . I want to do things like this site all the time, since I've come to realize that the work I do professionally, technical communications & content management, is only somewhat valued . . . twice now, long-term roles have been ended for me in a half hour call . . . 10 years of commitment between them, & done in sum total of an hour . . . so, yah, I will fucking strive like hell to get my next role, but the illusions of true commitment are gone . . . I want to pay my time down to do my Art all the blessed time, & fuck the rest . . . life is finite . . . jobhunting is death on wheels &, honestly, payjobs just pay better . . . so there is all that . . .
Now, on the plus side, two years in the making, Scriptor Press Sampler | 20 | 2018 Annual is done!. . . This Annual's contents include:
*** Poetry by Raymond Soulard, Jr., Tamara Miles, Ace Boggess, Martina Reisz Newberry, Colin James, Judih Weinstein Haggai, Joe Ciccone, Gregory Kelly, & Diana Rosen
*** Travel journal by Nathan D. Horowitz
*** Prose pieces by Jimmy Heffernan, Charlie Beyer, & Leia Friedman
*** Dream Raps by Raymond Soulard, Jr.
*** Labyrinthine [new fixtion] by Raymond Soulard, Jr.
*** Fiction pieces by Tom Sheehan & Algernon Beagle
*** Graphic artwork by Kassandra Soulard
So that is a victory, honest & true. Will be mailing out with Cenacle 122 early next week . . . hoping this combo of the two will occur each Cenacle into next year, till the Sampler series is caught up, & then annually as should be . . . Also thinking about the Free Little Libraries all around the country & world, as a way of wider distribution while evading commerse . . . would love to get Jim Burke III's RaiBook finally done, would be first one in that series in seven years . . . & Burning Man Books 2024 is on my mind too . . . also, working on Great Grand Braided Narrative this weekend, in lieu of new SPRadio weekend . . . been three Encore Weekends in a row, but will be a new long run starting next weekend . . . I'm on all this, trying to keep my shit together, trying to use this time for long stretches of job-hunting & long stretches of Art, publishing, radio, walks with KD . . . I'm better & worse at all this . . . ever true . . . maybe a little better this time . . . that job tried to suck me dry by the end, not just take away my role, my paycheck, but rended me done as a human being . . . unlike previous job losses, this one left me angry more than just sad . . . fuck them & their amateurish views on content management, documentation standards, & all the rest . . . I will do my best next go-round, but I really fucking hope I don't let myself get bedazzled into thinking that the bought-&-sold truths of working for a living are anything other than what they are . . . in sum, I'm still standing.
August 26, 2023
6:21 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . & back for the first Within's Within since layoff . . . ready to rock & roll again . . . Cenacle 122 & Sampler 20 are mailed, only archiving remains . . . tomorrow . . . then onto new ones . . . 3 weeks of fucking job hunting & ugly as always, but trying my fucking best to do my Art & presswork, tend KD, tend who & what I can of the world . . . don't let the bastards of this world win by laying down . . .
September 2, 2023
2:13 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 122 & Sampler 20 are mailed, still archiving remains . . . jobhunting tiring as fuck as always, but nibbles keep it going . . . necessity really keeps it going . . . long weekend, as much black pens & notebooks as possible . . . the rest is the rest . . .
September 9, 2023
12:16 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . job hunting just slowed me this week . . . writing a lot, but just slow, trying to get this shit done & done well & done soon . . .
September 16, 2023
2:38 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . job hunting daily its hard sucking drain . . . pen moving every moment I can in opposition . . .
September 22, 2023
11:17 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . job hunting's this week peak was two interviews mid-week . . . shake mind's ass, move the fuck on . . . my show is going on ahead of time tomorrow mroning . . . then going to write Bags End News all day long . . . giving as many fucks as I can . . . Art ever & ever the salve . . .
October 7, 2023
4:03 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . maybe getting close to a good job, next week will tell more . . . Cenacle 123 is started up . . . . just gotta keep head up & moving, tis hard at times, tis the only way on . . .
October 14, 2023
6:36 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Maybe getting closer to two jobs, but no way of knowing anything yet . . . Cenacle 123 is started up, yes, but meanwhile, my brother Michael died, after a long time of bad health . . . looked at some old pictures of this person I knew sort of long ago, remembered his devilish smile, yah . . . & the Middle East has exploded again, as it fucking does . . . dear friend Judih Weinstein Haggai & her beloved Gadi are missing, hurt, fates unknown . . . I don't give a fuck for nation-states, or ideologies, or kinds of worship, or anything else when somehow, some way, someone is killing someone else in the name of an idea . . . fuck that & fuck the fools who let themselves get used to it being acceptable . . . this world is sacred, humans or not, & humans are doing all they kind to fuck it up, fuck themselves up, take everything down with them . . . no God or god or whatever I could abide would let this nightmare go on approved . . . I tend to think we're on our own, whatever brought us here, & we had better stop looking to statues & stars for the answers we need . . . PEACE MOTHERFUCKERS
October 21, 2023
6:07 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 is slowly underway . . . four advanced round interviews next week, & still waiting on another one . . . is that enough for one to land? I certainly hope so . . . meanwhiile the War resumes & goes on, ever & ever fucking on . . .
October 28, 2023
4:05 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 is getting there more & more, still slow for me though . . . finishing what I'm writing in Bags End News is more than all important . . . job hunting seems maybe near an end . . . half a dozen later round interviews this week, more following up these next week . . . thinking hopeful that one will cross the line . . . get on with full living again . . . no sign of Jude & Gadi, war in Israel shrieks on, nobody able to willing to stop it . . . long ago on this date in 1989 met a dark-haired girl on a mountain . . . for a short time something so sweet . . . the rest downhill slow then faster . . . but that afternoon, to feel something good, feel it returned in kind . . . that's the kind of memory one should hold onto, midst the cruddy rest . . .
November 11, 2023
7:47 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 slow & going . . . employment nightmare ended 8 days ago, when RTI offered me a Technical Writer position, full-time, been welcoming me ever since . . . . to make good of all that I've learned, the better & the worse . . . going down to New Britain, first time in over a year, dive deep within, see what is there . . .
November 18, 2023
6:18 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 slow & going, now aiming for December 2023 release to complete this strange year in high, hopeful form . . . new work colleagues reaching out to say friendly hellos, get me ready to arrive on the 27th . . . such a new, old, nice, strange feeling to feel welcomed . . .
Down in New Britain for my sorta-annual writing sabbatical . . . three days in my old college stomping grounds . . . liberry, Peoples Donutshop, Capitol Lunch, McDonald's . . . simple clean safety of Red Roof Inn . . . felt like three days' descent into the hard memorie of this past year, & which had gone wrong (payjob management), & what has gone right (loved ones, Art, ever) . . . came back more ready for a new chapter . . . a good time of year to say Thankee-Thankee-Thankee!
November 25, 2023
7:35 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 still going, though all slowed this week by what JBIII would have called shitty colds . . . not COVID, thank goodness . . . payjob starts up Monday, hoping it's a different from how the last one ended as could be . . . will do my part for sure . . .
December 2, 2023
8:42 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 still going, but now to debut later in December . . . first week of work a blessedly sane experience . . . so glad to have moved along for real & true . . .
December 9, 2023
1:42 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . Cenacle 123 slowly moving to finish, day by day, slowest issue in the making in a long time . . . payjob is going well, after two weeks, feeling hopeful about this turn in the road . . .
December 16, 2023
1:47 p.m.
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Milkrose, Massachusetts
Updated radio page . . . last weekend for this turn of the calendar, fun as ever . . Cenacle 123 still moving along, piece by piece . . . still hoping its debut is next weekend . . .
Three weeks in, payjob is going well . . . nice people, very good at what they do, & what they are, so I am deeply grateful . . . meanwhile, the Middle East thunders again with war & death . . . the Pandemic does not slow . . . the Earth is in ever-greater climate distress . . . is there hope? Always. But hope awaits action, or comes to nothing in the end . . . much action awaits . . .
December 31, 2023
9:20 p.m.
Bungalow A
Ogunquit, Maine
Cenacle | 123 | December 2023 is released within its dated month. Glory be, but no. Judih Haggai Weinstein, & her dear husband Gadi, dead because of war. I will say more on the issue soon. But, happily, its many tributes to Jude are now released . . . with SO much love . . .